She was laughing as I was scared, looking for my grandparents. Once, when I awoke from a nap, I realized my mom was not there, but the dragon lady was. This unfortunately wasn’t the only time she tried to get rid of me. As individuals and as a country, I believe we could all use the wisdom and protection of grandparents.

I knew my mom was seriously going to throw me out the second story window to the cement below and scrambled away, running out of the house for my life and hid in the forest until my unknowing grandparents returned from grocery shopping. I wondered about America’s shifting personality. Though confusing, I was sensitive to her shifting personality and learned to read what was real and pretend. Are gangs terrorizing neighborhoods much different? Is black men being singled out and murdered in broad daylight any different? She’d chase me to the frenzied point that she thought it was right to try to throw me out the window she had opened. My mom could flip on a dime and become the dragon lady in the china hutch that would chase me around the dining room table. I feel like this scattered psyche is one explanation for so much division in the country today and erosion of democracy. Instead, fear grips us as it had gripped my mom and scattered her psyche to cause her to have multiple personalities when I lived with her as a child. I think if we realized how much control we actually had by freeing our thoughts, listening to our inner guidance and voting and electing officials with our best interests, the powers that be, that are clinging to power with a thread of nuclear weapons would actually be shaking in their boots. When a source such as a movie, or an authoritarian leader feeds this, we are ruled by fear that is outside of us. When I phrased it that way, and from her perpetual point of view that comes in the form of being a paranoid schizophrenia, the whole concept of the movie seemed preposterous! By watching this movie, were we all becoming too paranoid, even schizophrenic? I think that a dose of paranoia can be healthy, as our egos help ensure our safety, bet when it rules us, we are not in control. It would explain the plants in her local bank on someone else rather than the imagination of her own mind. It would feed her obsession with aliens and feed her paranoia and blame on an “other,” a deep state that controlled everything. This would be the kind of movie my mom would love. I briefly wondered if Russian bots were readvertising this video now to perpetuate distrust for our government as Trump’s impeachment trial had ended. It was generating a flurry of paranoia and distrust and more conspiracy theories. As soon as James sent this to me, I kept noticing it in my newsfeed and other people chatting about it. Greer was saying is true, how can we evolve beyond our situation? I wasn’t sure, as the situation he painted was very dire. Greer, and I felt for the guy, but in the back of my mind, I was wondering, can I trust someone with such a bitter view? What does being educated about this serve? I felt it served an agenda of distrust and helplessness more than empowerment. Greer was and I realized how he was coming from a state of fear and distrust, rather than hope and promise. It had me really thinking about things, until I realized how bitter Dr. It’s a well put together, thoughtful expose and very convincing. Greer who offers evidence of extraterrestrial contact.

This week James sent me a 2017 deep state alien conspiracy theory video called Unacknowledged that features Dr. This blog is about living aboard a boat in the Pacific Northwest and snow-birding to Arizona while training an artificial intelligent mental health virtual assistant named Rubi ready to provide support in the traumatic aftermath of COVID-19.

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